Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Psst.. suddenly i miss him. I feel kinda weird to mention it here (hehe) but i really do.
I know i should be grateful that he has been working hard now and there's been lesser fights and quarrels or minor disagreement compared to the past. Alhamdulilah.
We tried our best to accommodate to each other's wants and needs but only that at times "external environmental factors" can cause some conflicts between us. Sometimes, i just want to lead a simple life and not to be too complicated. That's what i've wished for.
I want to learn and try to be independent as this is the only opportunity for me now, however, should I have any shortcoming in any areas, I would appreciate the corrections, advices and suggestions to improve on it. Not by humiliation or comdemnation or any mean remarks. Of course, i must know that
"we cannot shut those mouths if we have to." Instead, i would really want to thank them for their concerns because, perhaps they love me :p
Well, I've spoken to one of my friends, (it's actually good to listen to other people's stories and sharing of their experiences, not to be kaypoh okay, haha) who, too has some problems or conflicts with other external parties as well.
Hearing about them, makes me feel more appreciative with my current situation or whichever that i will be encountering in the near future because I got no issues with my
other family. Alhamdulilah.
At times, with the problems that I experience every day, I learnt to be a better and more patience person. I know what kind of qualities a parent should have for the best of the children.
How i wish that BF would secretly read my blog (which i don't think he knows my blog add, though he knows the existence of my blog). U know why?
Because BF can read things better than actually listen to me. Really. Each time i tried to talk some sense into him, it seems difficult for me to convey the message to him. But if i sms him what i feel or share my thoughts with him, it is easier to get responds from him. Funny but it is true. Well, it may or may not be the same for the rest of the guys huh. ;)
And now, suddenly i miss everyone and need a breather here. And to make things better, a good environment to start with.
Chao!
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