Saturday, October 18, 2008
Lead a simple life.
On Monday, it will be another 2 months before my pre-big day. You can say that im kind of excited after so much that i've been through. Serious.
Yes of course, im happy during the honey-moon period (sad to say, this is the 3rd honey-moon, hopefully the fourth will be a real honey-moon together :)). During that time, we have been going out and spend time together every weekends and fetching me every other day.
Then ever since, his family has set the D-Date, so many things happened, the challenges and obstacles i have to go through, it wasn't easy inititally. I've always wanted my own ways. I tried to work things out, it doesnt work. All these perhaps, is a blessing in disguise in Ramadhan. Maybe it was a test for us before we decided to be with together in the future.
At times, i felt is he the one that i want for life and whether i made the right decision. (Well, all the problems that i've faced is not about a third party or things that he did that make me pissed)
After so much thought and careful thinking, i said to myself, i have made the decision during the happy moments, i know that i am happy with him and im comfortable doing everything together, no secrets between us, so what more do i want right.
We always make good conversation in the car, he told me about how he 'dislikes' me giving him unnecessary calls while he's working (to be honest, after a minute i called, i can call him again in another 2-5 mins, i know i can be that irritating hahaha).
I really don't want to change him anymore ever since he came back to my life. (I shall not mentioned what he did in the past. As long as he knows the mistakes that he made and will not be repeated again, i will be happy.) If he can accept me for the way i am, i shall accept for who he is.
I sat down and think to make improvements to myself. I told myself there's no way i can change him, what i really need to do now is to change my mindset and ways of treating him.
In the end, i never make any calls and smses during office hours except for the necessary one. I tried to understand his work who needs to travel all the time and i have to understand that he cant be fetching me everyday coz he needs to work harder right now.
And i made the right move. Serious. He's been the one making the calls and smses whenever he's free even when he's at home. He offered to fetch me without asking. And now, a ride home isnt mundane, we would always making conversations during the journey. More communication between us and more assurance from him. Alhamdulilah.
He talks to me in a better way than me (ya of course). I really hope he would be a better man each day and God will put the love in our hearts all the time. Maybe i focus too much on the disappointments and never celebrate on the joy that we had. He's been working hard every day and i am proud of him.
I really hope he doesnt disappoint me like before. Insyallah. All i need is a simple life and build a simple family. Insyallah amin.
5:49 AM
